Trying to Catch up

So i havent wrote on here in a while and as i was browsing my mom and sister's blog today i realized that i need to vent a little bit. So here it goes.....

School is underway and bringing on numerous opportunities and challenges.
My EMT course is going great, I now have my CPR certification and i almost have my first responder certification in the bag. So far i have passed all of my test with at least and 85. I have met so many new friends in this class which will hopefully come in handy when the EMT 104 class rolls around. Although the EMT class is going well, I seem to be struggling in one of the classes I used to excell in. My calculus class seemed to be getting easier and seemed to be clicking, but its not showing in my grades. I feel as if i know what im doing but its not turning out the right way. But on the up side i do have a few new motivations. I decided to be spontaneous and go out for the swim team, and to my surprise, i actually made the team. (Goes to Prove that anything can be accomplished with a little hard work and passion.)
I was browsing articles the other day on CNN when i came across my new motivation. It was an article that talked about the hardships of the Navy Nuclear Propulsion program and the rigorous schooling that goes along with it. (http://usmilitary.about.com/od/navy/l/blnukeschool.htm) The Nuclear Program only makes up about 3 percent of the navy but the Graduates of this program make up a large chunk of the top 10 percent of the Navy. With very few actually making it into the program and successfully graduating from the schooling, i decided that i want to be one of those few. I want to know that i can rise up to any challenge that i am given. And I know that I will have the support of my family and loved ones through this rigorous journey.

Nothing really new is happening in the Navy department of my life. I have got my materials memorized for the most part and im working on getting it all memorized. I have been working out very hard to get my body ready for the physical task that lies ahead. I feel my swimming is helping a lot with my endurance and conditioning.

Other than that, today has been a very emotional day. Brandy has just graduated boot camp on friday and has been spending the weekend with my mom and devin in Chicago. And although it is heart wrenching that i wasnt able to go and see her graduate, i look forward to being able to see her in December when she returns from her a-school. Its gonna be hard to wait until december to see her after not seeing her since july, but it only makes me look forward to december even more. And Im glad that when i do get to see her that we will be sharing one of the greatest experiences of our lives together. We are going to get baptized at the same time which means the world to me that i get to share that moment with her. She called me today to tell me that she has to go back to the base for the night and she is not going to be able to call or email me in a while. It was great to hear her voice and be able to talk to her after so long, but it seemed like such a short amount of time for me to communicate to her. It made me tear up a bit when she said she had to go. I can only imagine what my mom was feeling when she had to drop her off at the base and knowing that she will not be able to see her daughter again until december. But there is no doubt in my mind that my mom will come out strong through the situation.

All i have to say is I now understand the meaning of the ever so popular phrase, "you never know how much you care about something until you lose it". I didnt realize how close i was to my sister until all of this happened. But i do have a new found outlook of her and realize that she is a very strong individual. And i praise her for that. She is officially one of the newest members of my heros. =]

That is all I am going to write for today, but i will hopefully be updating this a little bit more often from now on.